I hope she understands.

I hope she doesn't hate me.

I please to god hope that i don't loose her friendship.

I do care about her, i care for her well being.

It's what's best. for now...

FUCK YOU GOD, WHY DO YOU HAVE TO MAKE DECISIONS SO HARD. BUT WHEN YOU EXECUTE, YOU FEEL RELIEF.

I'm sorry to her friends and family, i really am. Especially to Ms. Wilde.. she's most likely cursing at me right now..

sigh*

omfg...

But i made my decision, and that's it. I'm not backing out of it. Gotta be strong.

Having pride sucks sometimes.

I wish i could take things i said back. I know what i said was wrong, but truthfulness or rage gets the best of me, of people, and things you don't fully mean, come out.

To that one girl, i've been meaning to tell you im sorry ever since i changed classes and started giving you the cold shoulder. Today seeing this picture, i didn't even know, and i don't wanna be ok with one person and be fucked up to the other. I don't even think she cares about the friendship anymore, sigh* I doubt an "im sorry" will chance things. We had good times sophomore year. If i could only bring myself to saying those 2 words..

To that one kid. This is not the situation like with the person from above, but things still, they should have never ended like they are now. ehh

To everyone else, it saddens me when i see someone i used to say hi frequently and now not even an eye connection is made. I am to blame as well cuz at times i just don't care, but, i should know, it's good to keep those friendships because, sometimes, it's not what you know but who you know. Some of you, its amazing how you guys change. Your heads and ego getting bigger with each passing day. Thinking you're better than everyone else. Humility is a virtue, people need to get some of it.

Well.. the people that im still cool with, which suffices, you guys make it worth the while in Edison. Truly the only reason why im going to Le Show. hmm then again, im also there for the aftermath of Le Show.